Friday, February 20, 2009

check this out!



i found this awesome drawing on the internet, and i'm like "wow! this would look sooo cool colored!"

so i colored it. XD thanks to photoshop! it was crazy fun and its finally finished... i started the first day of this sememster. O.o and it looks sweet, right?!?!

Thursday, February 19, 2009

so... im sitting here watching spectacular. kinda sad i know...


but its not that horrible!

Sunday, February 15, 2009

im back!

so this has been a pretty exciting weekend... not only did i get to spend a day at the mall of america- but i am typing this very post on our new laptop! its a hand-me-down dell from my aunt and uncle, who's house we stayed at this weekend. lucky us!

he mall was definitely bigger than i remember... 4 levels in all, and a huge amusement park right in the middle. it used to be called Camp Snoopy, but they changed it to Nickelodeon World pretty recently. bummer. but the rides were awesome, and i SERIOUSLY recommend Spongebob's Rock Bottom Plunge to anyone who is willing to wait in line for an insanely fun and twisted ride. a dead vertical drop. want to know whats weird though? the line for the "Ghost Blasters" ride was A LOT longer... but it was a good time. we spent most of the day shopping actually, and even though i had quite a bit of money to spend, i only had time to get one thing. haha. oh well.

one last thing happened that pretty much made my day. in a scary kind of way. when we were waiting in line at the McDonald's right outside of the amusement park, a gang fight broke out right next to us. pretty freaky. lots of swearing and pushing. especially from this dad who stood up to protect his kid from the fight. he was big. more power to him. haha. but security was there in a matter of seconds and once we got our food we found somewhere else to eat.

so that was my weekend! an amazing amount of fun, though i didn't get to visit all of the stores that i wished... but oh well. i;m sure i'll go again.

and i should go now, since my awesome uncle said so. (inside joke.) XD

Friday, February 6, 2009

yay!

so, i'm sitting here in web page design, like usual, and i am now incredibly happy. its kind of mean to feel so, but i got the 3 people next to me moved because they were all very annoying and loud and liked to talk about VERY explicit things, that everyone in the class could hear except for the teacher.

but i fixed the problem. :D

[welcome.]

navigating around the school hallways and seeing the people walk by, i look into their faces. i notice their hair color, whether they wear glasses, what color eyes they have, who they walk with... its corny, but i try to look past all of that, too. once and awhile its nice for someone as shy as me to pass another person in the hall, a complete stranger no less, who dares to make eye contact and sends my heart into flutters. i can't help thinking, "that person saw me." but its not really the act of "seeing" itself, its more the act of "searching," that means most to me. i feel lost. i feel disposable; a picture frame that gets a scratch across the glass and is thrown away, just to be replaced. i don't really have a problem with that, i don't feel like i need to be pitied or ... that i need to seek attention. its the replacement that bothers me. i want to offer something that no one else can, i just haven't found that thing yet. this is just the ramblings of a high school no one who likes to watch rather then do. i like to think of myself as rather quiet, yet excitable and fun to be around. but there's always that underlying feeling of unease and awkwardness, that i've only been able to overcome a few times in my life. i don't want to change who i am. i don't want others to pretend to see in me what they don't. i want people to see the bad side of me, and spend the time searching for the good. i look for the best in others, and often times face the flaws in myself. welcome to my public diary...