irondale & buttonhoff.

just yesterday we had a marching compition at irondale in minnisota. it was a good show. me improved on somethings, and we had trouble with others, and we really tried. we put ourselves out there. but even after that, we took a huge step back from our show in marshell a full week ago. i'm not saying that i'm ashamed or dissapointed, but this really shouldn't be happening. we are good, not to toot our own horns, but we are. we have so much potential in every member of the band, we just have to work harder and harder to show it. i almost feel a personal regret. like its somehow my fault that we didn't do our best... i tried. obviously everyone tried. and i don't remember a thing about the show, just the crowd's overwhelming responce to the inverted triangle. i was hopeful. rosemount is good. and they won, and they diserved to win. but there's that feeling, ya' know? the feeling that everyone's talking about. the "...we won," feeling, that no freshman or sophmore of the Lincolh High School Marching band has felt. this was our last real chance to prove ourselves. now all we have to do is improve ourselves. i think this guilty feeling comes when i think about the seniors. this is their last year, and i kinda wanted them to have that feeling one more time before they leave. they know what its like, sure, but its a feeling that you crave after having it once. i wanted them to feel it again, and i wanted to feel it for the first time. but am i dissapointed in our band? no. not really. we tried. now we just have to try again.

nuff said.

i don't really have anything to blog about, but i feel like i'm getting pressured into it by all of my amazing friends that update theirs quite regularly. wouldn't want to let anyone down... first topic! i have rediscovered my love for jensen ackles and jared leto. i could continue on that topic because they are both so freakin' amazing, but i'll spare you. new subject. facebook! endless hours of fun i tell you. if you don't have one, you should get one. i don't care what anyone says, it so much better than myspace- its just that people hate to admit it. i'm not sure why... doesn't matter to me, i have one of each. i could actually spend hours a day on facebook taking random quizzes that mean absolutely nothing and quite possibly lie right to your face (heard of dade, anyone?). still they're fun. why, just today i found out that i am a normal thinker, have a squeaky clean mind (HA!), and am a chilled out mommy. who knew?!?!

almost at the point of *unfair smoldering* don't you think?

hehehe nuff said.